It has been two years (really two and a half because of studying abroad) since I have been in serious school mode. This makes me nervous heading into probably the most difficult workload and curriculum I have ever experienced. But something that I do have now that I didn't have two years ago is life experience that showed me that this is really what I want to do. Law has always been in the back of my mind but when I graduated with my bachelor degree's all I wanted to do was take a break and work! It's funny how working can make you want to do nothing but get back in school. I think they call that perspective.
People say everything happens for a reason and as time progresses, I think that may be true. Or I sure hope it's true. I have had heart break and I have given out heart break (never on purpose). I have stayed true to myself and I have strayed from myself (but never too far). I have cried on the floor and had to have someone I love pick me up and I have had to pick up those that I love. I have doubted myself before and I have been confident before. Sometimes I am too emotional and sometimes I am not emotional enough. I am a scary equal mix of my Mother and my Father.
I am excited to jump into this journey completely. I don't feel like I have anything holding me back and I feel lucky to be able to do something by myself and for myself. I am not going to be afraid to ask for help and I will need encouragement and love along the way but I promise that I will try my best all the time. This truly will be determining the rest of my life and I am committed to making the rest of my life the best it can be. I can't promise this blog will always be positive and sometimes you may say "is that the girl I knew" but just know that I am growing and I am learning and I invite you all to read and comment along the way.
Well congratulations girl! I understand what you are going through. When I graduated from Roanoke College in '84, all I could think about was working and being a real "adult." Then in '86, I realized something was missing. My dad was sure that I needed to go to law school, but I realized that I wanted to be a teacher. I have never regretted that decision, and I believe it is what God wanted me to do. When I graduted from college in '84, I was on the president's list, but my GPA was 3.2 (I had made mistakes and had changed majors). When I went back to school in '86, I sensed a purpose in my classes that I had never sensed before and came out with a 4.0. I've never made anything less, even in graduate classes, because whatever I'm studying is what I need to be a better teacher and artist. I guess I saw classes as career training courses and workshops. Anyway, those 2 years away from school gave me a keener perspective and you are absolutely right when you say that life experiences do count! I am very proud of you, and you will always remain a very special student in my heart. I had a chance to see you grow as a person and as an artist. I have no doubt that there will not be one juror or judge that will be moved by what you say. I'll try to keep up with what you're doing (summers are always easier), and remember if you're ever in town, a free dinner on me. Love Ya--Brittany!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story Mrs. Webster. I miss you dearly.
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